Wednesday, April 29, 2015

I miss simple

I know life will get crazier as my kids get older, but I'm ready to simplify big time.   We've let ourselves get lost in the rat race, the fast lane, the crazy life.   The boys are done with soccer, and I'm pretty sure I'm not letting my boys be in anything until they are 8, and Vivvy can be in dance.  And each kid can be in ONE THING….ONE THING!   Well, plus piano and scouts/activity days/mutal.   I know this is wisful thinking, but this week has been SO HARD. I haven't been able to keep my mind focused AT ALL, I've had nightmares, which I NEVER have anymore, and well, my vision is gone!   Everything is so blurry.  I thought when the boys were done with soccer I'd feel less overwhelemd, but my callings, and photoshoots, kids grades, scouts, my two baby's constant messes, my struggle with food, and  dejunking the house to get ready to pack has consumed my brain and stressed me out.   
I'm so excited for August, when the kids get settled into their new school, we get settled into our new house, there's not much going on, there's nowhere to shop, no where to eat, less activites, more dirt and chickens, girl's camp is long over, packing is over, unpacking is over.  I think my mind gets caught up in all that I'm doing, along with all that I have coming up and it just turns off.  But in the meantime, I need to be the fun, happy, nurturing mom that these faces need…..