My mean love life....Part VIII....done with the rest!

I went to Bishop Casey Fish and confessed 21 years of sins, and asked for my mission papers. He told me to take all of the stolen road signs back, stop taking the sacrament for a while, and tell that boy that I was working with that I liked him, and then he’d give me my papers.
The next week I thought about what bishop had said. While we were on the job, we were stopped at an off ramp and out of no where I said, “I like you more than I’ve ever liked any guy”. We were both totally taken back by the comment. I really didn’t know I was going to say that. But BAM, there I did, it was out there. I probably should have passed out or fake passed out and pretended like I never said it. Or even better, knocked him out in hopes that he’d forget, but I didn’t. I left it out there. Luckily we treated the comment as if I HADN’T said it, but just knowing that he knew made me feel like a silly girl in love. Slowly he started putting his arm around me more, kissing me more (other than the make outs), and wanting to go to my family activities. I’m sure you all have figured this one out, but the hottest guy in the world is my Jase. We slowly started falling more and more in love. We had the best times together. We got to dive all over AZ with our job. One day when we got stuck in construction, we were at the front of the line and there were a bunch of workers, we decided we wanted to make out while we were waiting. The workers were busting up. I remember our first Halloween together. I was still able to wear whatever costume I wanted, so we found the first two matchy ones...how cheesy. Devils. We just wore them to the Halloween party that the family he was living with had.Another time we hiked to the bottom of the salt river canyon in our swimming suits down some switchbacks. WE got down and hiked around a for a while. We were the only ones for miles. Jase pulled me and I was soo excited because I thought he was going to kiss me, but he got his lips right up next to mine, and nothing…NOTHING! I was dying! He said he wasn’t going to kiss me anymore until I kissed him, because he always initiated the kisses. He later told me he could tell I wanted to kiss him so badly because my bottom lip quivered. Did not. We had motorcycle rides through that same canyon in October in the middle of the night when we were both frozen. My journal

entries turned into “I would love to spend forever with him because I LOVE him, but I could never be “in love” with him”. Even confused myself with that one. Then a few weeks later, “He’s my best friend and even if that’s what we stay forever I will always love him because he makes me so happy”. Aww how sweet and sappy and so unKristalish.

Then was his first holiday with the family. I invited him to Thanksgiving at my sister Randa's house in Mesa. It wasn't that hard for me to meet his family, there were only 3 brothers and a mom and step dad. My family at the time was 4 sisters, 3 brothers in law, 7 neices and 4 nephews, and a mom and dad. And for any of you that know my family, it's crazy when we get together, lots of food, cards, sitting around, pedicures, doing of hair, cooking, baking, eatting, and sometimes my sisters (all ex cheerleaders) get into cheers or dances. Probably a bit crazy for a guy coming from a family of 4 boys. But it was great. I loved having him there. I wrote in my journal, "we went with all of the guys to check out cars, he fit right in with the family, yikes!"
The small town rumors started flying after a few months of seeing his work van at my house every day. Rumors of marriage even. Thanks people. Jason had even heard them. I asked him, “how funny would that be?”. He said, “I’ve thought about it a lot”. My heart stopped, along with the conversation. I didn’t know where to go from there, so I didn’t. We continued hanging out, kissing, holding hands, flirting, and seeing each other everyday. He came to all of my family events with me, which made me fall even more in love watching him play with my nieces and nephews. The next few weeks were filled with the game “temptation” in the boat on the lake that we used to go lay in at night, buffalo wings at RJ Black Bulls, and me meeting his family. But I knew, he still hadn’t told me how he felt about me, and he had a trip planned to Cali with some friends to go see a girl that had been in love with him. He told me he for sure didn’t like her when he came back, but I was still so annoyed inside that he went to see her when he was in what I thought, a serious relationship. I got over it.