Ok, so I'm going on week 3 of no breaks...no dates....no nothing. The closest thing I get to a break is the 2 hours of volleyball when the kids are somewhat being watched by the babysitter...usually more stressful than if I had them myself. They were out by the road this week, running around the church last week, and in the gym bugging me the week before. I NEED A FREAKING BREAK!!! I had it planned last night for my mom to watch the kids for ONE hour while I made a nice dinner for Jase and we ate it on the trampoline (it's the thing that I drew this week from our "improving your relationships" jar...Nerdy I know, but I love it, we've been doing it for years). But then alas, Jase is over half an hour late home, I get too frustrated and call the whole thing off, and show my frustration til I fall asleep that night. Am I the only mom that has these types of days? I would say moments, but I know everyone has their moments, I'm talking about my 3rd day of going nuts! And I had a few last week. I find myself being short with my kids, not being fun or playing games with them. I don't answer ANY phone calls, and I try not to go out into public for fear of running into someone I know (which is inevitable here) and having to fake happy! blah!!!! I even put on Hillary Weeks every morning full blast, and then in the afternoon I belt her stuff out on the piano, and I sit down and read an article out of the Ensign, I do a billion exercise videos, I relax and read one of my home decor magazines, I do most anything that I've read reduces stress...the only solution I see to this...remove the children. I feel like they are constantly fighting, don't listen to a word I say, try as hard as they can to make the house as messy as possible, and complain about every meal I make. And I know they aren't that bad, but the mood I've been in lately has made everything seem 10x worse! I'm really hoping this weekend will be a good thing. I'm a little nervous because I have 4 photoshoots, and 2 planned meals, which will both be a well needed break from the kids. But there are so many other things I want to do while we're down there since we haven't been down in over a month, and we won't go back for a long time, probably longer than a month, and I know there will be no time, and I'll stress again. Seriously does someone have a solution to stress? Especially when a couple of weeks ago, I felt sooo content and relaxed and like I had things under control. I was at my utter most happiness! Honestly! It was wonderful. Alright, now I need to go see what my kitchen looks like. In the 5 minutes I took to write this, I heard 2 fights, 3 things of food/beverage hit the ground, and the baby chicks went crazy for a minute. Wish me luck!