It's all happening so fast

(Vivian and her birth week friend Andie)

This little kid....is growing WAY TOO FAST!  Doesn't it seem like I just gave birth!? It does to me.  Although I'm glad those first 6 months are over. I do love love having a newborn, but I never have had post partum depression like I did this time, and it was awful.  not just crying everyday, but I honestly found no reason to do anything at all.  I didn't want to be around my friends, I didn't want to go to church, I didn't want to wake up, I definitely didn't want to get out of bed and be a mom, and I didn't want Jason around.  I didn't want ANYTHING.  I did want to cuddle my baby, but I wanted her to sleep more.  I was sad and mad and never satisfied with anything.  It was honestly the worst 6 months of my life.  The fact that it was summer, and that we were back in the place I hoped to never be again didn't help, but to add to that, 5 small kids at home, and hormones.  Not my favorite time of life. I still feel like I'm a bit off, but it's slowly coming back.
Back to the adorable perfect, too fast growing baby.  Some of her accomplishments this month:

 -a tooth!  NO!!!! That's the worst!  The end of the gummy smiles.  I was hoping she'd be a late bloomer like Kam, but bam!  She's got one on the bottom and 2 more wanting to come through on top.  It is pretty cute, but just another sign that my baby is growing up.

 -last week she learned to stand up in her crib when she wakes up.  Which should have been a sign to fix things for the next accomplishment.

 - she fell out of her crib this morning.  Sad.   I was laying in bed and heard her cry, not a whiney "I'm awake, come get me" cry, but a, "what the WHAT?!  I just fell out of my nest and it's dark and I can't fly" cry.   It was sad....time to lower the crib.

 -food.  She's an eater.  We started her on veggies last month, but this month she loves to suck on apples, eat little pieces of fruit, and don't tell J, but I let her have half of a breakfast cookie yesterday.  I don't think she got much of it in her mouth anyway.  But now it is time to start her on small pieces of other food.  Sad.

 -sitting up!  She started sitting up either early this month or late last month.  She's still pretty roll, but she does sit up.

 - and last but of coarse not least...CRAWLING!  She started scooting last month, but now it's a full fledged (and perfect, according to Dr. Mulder) crawl!  It's so cute. She's super chubby, but still super little for her age, so everything is so much cuter and littler. I love it!  And every once in a while, she's come up on one arm and one hip and strike a pose. It's too cute.


And there you have it, the ever depressing, inevitable accomplishments of Vivvy J McMulder!