SOOO ready

Ok, tomorrow is the big day.  Diet and workout are making their way back into my life. 

I've got all I need.  A fridge full of produce. A freezer full of salmon and chicken and frozen fruit and vegetables.

My motivational clothes...

And lots of pictures to remind me that I CAN DO IT!!!!!

I can get a round butt again....REALLY want it again this time too.

ahh, and although it was my goal to get Madonna arms after Boston, I just want not flabby arms after Vivian.

this, I want.  And I KNOW, it'll be a year or so, but I want a flat stomach again so I don't have to flinch every time Jase grabs my waist.

Ahh, and just confidence, I miss it. I almost cried when we went to Forever 21 yesterday. I felt so ugly and judged. I know, I know it's all me, but still, it IS me, and I want confidence, and MY confidence comes with a healthy body, not a 200 pound body.

 And a reminder picture to remind me that I don't even want to get back to my skinniest....just back to Jason's size......

Is it wrong that I want my husband's figure with boobs????

So what's the plan this time?  Well, I want to start out with just the anti inflammatory diet. I'd like to stick around 2000 calories while I'm nursing, but I need to make them healthy calories.

I want to start off by going on walks and doing arm and butt workouts.

Eventually, in a month or so, I"d like to be back to Turbo Fire, and possibly running, depending on Vivvy and the weather.

And I'd like to be back to Weight Watchers....my go to weight loss plan.

Goals for the week.  NO SUGAR, NO DAIRY and NO eating after 6:30

Either a walk or an easy work out video EVERYDAY, unless housework takes up the whole day, which it COULD today if it weren't Sunday.

#1 goal...enjoy this baby...my LAST BABY!!!!!

Wish me luck!

5 little kids

Ok, so I know a lot of you reading this have kids closer in age than mine...if you do, skip this post, cause I don't want you to think I'm a sissy.
This has been the LONGEST spring break ever!  Here's the 411 on Vivvy's pregnancy, birth, first 3 weeks of life.

24/7 with 5 kids 10 and under.  at least 2 in our room every night, at least one major mess each day, and at least one panic moment everyday.  A good half hour to get everyone out the door and in the car, and a fight an hour to break up.

The pregnancy, not my easiest, but not my hardest.  I think Pearcen was my hardest pregnancy, and Kam was my easiest.  The other 3 were about the same.

Her birth, my easiest BY FAR!  Great epidural, half a push and she was out. I just laid there watching infomercials while Jase slept and my body progressed.

Her first 3 weeks.  Week one was the same as any week, lots of nursing, hemroids, stitches, no sleep and fatigue.  These last 2 weeks...with all 5 at home and no one here to help...INSANE.  Vivvy gets easier everyday, and the older 2 will go back to school on Tuesday, don't know if that's helpful or not . It's nice to have them here to go check on Pearce, but I think since they've been so  so bored, they've been fighting more, which makes me insane.    But yes, having to count heads every time we head out and every time we leave a store is so goofy, but I'm always afraid not too.  My cousin took my older 3 tonight so Jase and I could take the younger two and get some shopping done...it was nice.  Reminds me how I took for granted our first 3 years of marriage when we just had 2 kids.  Two was so easy and relaxing.  Actually, 4 was super easy.  I really hope 5 will get there after we teach this one to sleep and not have to eat every hour for half an hour.  She's fantastic though.  We all, even Pearcen now, LOVE her so much.  She's so sweet and tiny.  I love cuddling with her, and I don't' mind getting up with her for hours every night...well, I don't mind it when I'm doing it, but around 3pm the next day when I'm ready for bed, ugh!  
Yesterday at Mimi's I had to ask for a table of 6 and a high chair.....another thing that made me KNOW we're done!  We've got 5 freaking awesome, super rad, totally fantastic kids.  We're done!  Not as many as we thought we'd have, but I'm too old.  I know I'm only 32, but my pregnancy age has got to be in the 50's...I'm so tired, grouchy, sore, and miserable each pregnancy. I can't do it again.

The newest Mulder...

Vivian Grace Mulder

7 pounds 8 ounces

20.5"  

13" head 

PERFECT!

Spring Break 2012

My poor kids during spring break...I'm so boring. I sit here and nurse, then clean, then nurse, then cook, then nurse, then sit.  Although, I was nursing yesterday and I decided to try some squats as I nursed....until the kids walked in and started laughing...boo!  But poor Boston and Pearce have been GLUED to the TV for about 5 hours of the day watching Spongebob.  I couldn't resist this adorable shot of Pearce and his gushy bum. I LOVE IT!

And of coarse Jaden and Kamryn still fight over who gets to hold Vivvy between feedings.

And on Sunday I made one last junky thing before we started our diet and it was AMAZING.  It was my favorite brownie from scratch recipe, with a layer of fluff, and then a layer of my favorite chocolate buttercream frosting from scratch.  It was amazing....

And this guy. I miss him. I miss just cuddling him, and playing with him, and giving him so much attention.  But it's been so much fun to watch what he does when he doesn't have me 100% of the time.  He stole the pacifier and the phone and found his way to his closet where he keeps his toys and he was good there for A LONG TIME.

ahh, and baby bibby's bath.  She hated the first few, but last night (not pictured below) she LOVED.

Boston's thing during spring break is collecting pennies, so he can cash em in for quarters, so he can buy a bunch of bouncy balls from Old Navy.  He's very goal oriented.

Pearce has been obsessed with the Ikea train track that we just got out for the first time in over a year, and a thing of bubbles that Jaden got at the dollar store.  He's awesome1

Kamryn and Jaden helped me build little penguins for lunch yesterday.  They were fun, but full of toothpicks.

And this...it's just cute.

BUSY!

Ok, so I don't take many pictures anymore, for a few reasons.  1. this house is too dark to not use a flash anytime of day and in any room.  2. I don't like flash pictures.  3.  I'm lazy.  and 4. I'm busy.  haha!
But I WILL start taking more pictures....as of RIGHT NOW!  But for now, an update.

I have a few spare moments right now while the younger 3 are napping (MIRACLE!!!) and the older 2 are hopefully at the park with the neighbor kids.

Update on EVERYONE

Jaden, LOVING playing soccer again, NOT loving his team.  He loves that he has a cousin on his team, but besides the two of them, and 2 other kids, the team is kinda, um, not super into soccer, including the coach.

Kamryn, is just loving having a sister. I knew she would. She's also, all of a sudden, wanting to do more girly things, like Easter dress shopping, pedicures, decorating her room, matching up clothes and of coarse, baking/cooking.  She's awesome!

Boston mostly just goes around doing whatever his brothers and sister are doing.   He's a pretty easy going guy.  He HATES to go to hip hop...I think because it's so late in the day and he's worn out, but he always LOVES it after he goes.  Right now, he's still on the hunt for good smooth rocks for more pet rocks, and on the hunt for pennies.  He has a tally sheet counting the pennies he's collecting because for every 25 he gets, he can get a quarter and get a bouncy ball at Old Navy.  Don't know why he's aspiring to that....but he is.

Pearcen, pretty much the same as Boss, but every hour or so he comes up and asks if he can watch Spongebob, and I'm sad to say that a few times  a day, I let him....my kids have SUPER overdosed on TV and WII the last week or so.  Pearce is also in a super silly face phase.  His scowl makes everyone laugh. I need to for sure get a picture of it.

Vivian, um, she sleeps, eats, and doesn't poop.  We're hoping she'll poop SOON.  But she's still perfect, tiny and cute.

Jase, works, comes home, plays with the kids, eats, falls asleep, then works.

Me...I clean, feed, clean, feed, clean, feed, sometimes sleep, Pinterest, clean, feed, Facebook, then I clean.  I've been busy setting goals though. I have to set em and read and re read them. I have had the same weight loss blog for oh, probably 4 years, and I LOVe looking back at my goals after each kid, and the pictures of me getting fat, then getting skinny again.  I'm dreading this next week of taking my before pictures.  It's always depressing, embarrassing and SO motivating.  I just found a blog of a mom that sounds JUST LIKE ME.  THIS POST is exactly how I feel, and I've read it a few times and it just makes me wanna eat veggies and work out!  WE've started the anti inflammatory diet, but it's super hard with people bringing in food.  Not that Im complaining...I HATE making dinners after crazy days, and I'm LOVING trying different kinds of food, but let's just say I've weighed the exact same for a week now...and Vivian is only a week and 4 days.  yea, i should still slowly be losing some weight.  Aww well.    I'm motivated, and as soon as I "heal" hopefully I can start getting som muscle back so I can burn some fat.  
Other good news...I can nurse!  I have to use the weirdo nipple shield, but I'm not dying!  It is sore at the initial latch on, but there's NO blood, NO crying, and No going to the hospital every few days to talk with the laction consultant!!! yay!!! But...we have had to supplement...she's down a pound and not pooping.  ugh!  Whatever...it'll all workout.

Baby Bibby....

Ok, of coarse it's all about Vivian right now, but this dude is being SO awesome.  He loves to go around making faces, and every once in a while poke the baby and say, "baby!", but he's really enjoying his time in front of the tube.  Poor dude is turning into Al Bundy....

 Back to Vivvy.  This was her first picture when she came out.  She's so squishy and gushy and wittle.

 I LOVE having babies.  It's so awesome.  My anxiety was crazy this time, and I definitely wasn't mentally prepared for labor this go, but it all went well.

 Jase kinda likes her too.

 And of coarse Grandma and Grandpa were headed down the morning we had her.  Dad loves my boys like crazy, but he always has a special place in his heart for the girls.  It's his thing.

 And she had tons and tons of cousin and aunt and uncle visitors.  I didn't get pictures of hospital visitors, but they were non stop for 2 days.  She defaintely feels loved.

 Ahh, and her first bath.  She still had her umbilical cord, so we just had to wipe her down...she hated it, but she smells soooo good!!! I love clean baby smell!!!!

And I'm horrible at taking pictures anymore, but Pearcen, pokes her, Boston just likes to look at her a lot, and the older 2 fight over who gets to hold her the second they come through the door.  Boston was calling her Baby Bibby and Baby Bibian, but now he says, "I'm just going to call her Tella"....he's back to Stella.  ha!

Vivvy!!!!

So last Thursday I freaked out in the morning. I lost my mucus plug, which I always do, but not only was I so not ready for it yet, but there was also a lot of blood, which I've never had.  So I freaked, got on Facebook and luckily my birthing friend January was on and told me that it was normal to bleed with it.  So I calmed down.
Then that night we went on a date and I was contracting the whole time.  I came  home, we went to bed, and I kept contracting, so I went in to go pee and TONS of blood, so I freaked, we called my sister Vonda to come stay with the kids and we headed over to the hospital...contraacting the whole way, getting stronger and stronger and closer and closer.

We sat in triage for an hour or so, contractions were now killing and I was ready for the epidural.  They moved me to delivery room and had me contract it out for another couple of hours, then alas, some old guy with an earring came, shoved the needle in my back and then I watched every infomercial EVER for about 5 hours.  Around 5:30, I couldn't take the pressure any longer. I had been at a 10 for a good half hour, but the doctor...not MY doctor....wasn't there yet.  Finally he came, he broke my water (didn't have to use the pick thingy because amy bag of waters was already bulging) and she slid right out.  Tiny Tiny Tiny Vivvy slid right out!  She's amazing.  Seriously perfect!~