parenting and moving single style

So the last couple of months have sucked.  I've had to pack up the house, clean, unpack, make all the meals, do all the laundry (no changes with those two), and pretty much watch the kids hans solo.  I'll admit, I do get him on Sundays, but the day of rest, no one is much help to anyone, but I do enjoy our Sundays together.  But I can't wait to be together as a family again, and work as a team, and not be alone, and not having anxiety over another big move, and not living in my parents house, and not driving up and down the streets of my favorite town crying because I don't get to live here anymore.
I laid in bed this morning....alone and felt the baby.  He moved from one side to the other, but I have only felt his actual movements 3 or 4 times.  But I can tell which side he's on because it's a huge hard ball.
J is in the valley.  Working hard today and checking out some more houses tonight and tomorrow.  We were approved for one, in a fantastic neighborhood, by the Gutt's kids school, but it's only 1700 sq ft.  Which I can probably hack for the first 6 months of our rental agreement, but not the last 6 when I have a newborn and it's too hot to send the kids outside.  Ugh, well see what happens with that.
Pearcen turned 2 today.  I honestly can't believe this last year.  It has dragged more than any year in my life, but to think that I delivered pearcen 2 years ago is so unbelievable!   He turned feisty about 3 weeks ago, but he gave me a break for his birthday. He's been awesome today! I hope it sticks.
Boston, ugh, boston, nothing makes me more sad than the thought of him not graduating kindergarten with Mrs. Young like my older 2 did.  I always envisioned all my kids graduating her kindergarten class.  I LOVE HER!  Boston was riding his bike downt he street with Jase yesterday and said, "dad, I think I'm fawwing in wuv wiff my teacher".  Then he started singing it, "I'm fawwing in wuv wiff my teacher, I'm fawwing in wuv wiff my teacher".  We told her and she said, "boston, I think I'm falling in love with you too".  She's just so amazing. I never thought anyone could outdo Mrs. Law...the amazing kindergarten teacher that taught all of my sisters, me and hundreds and hundreds of others, but Mrs. Young is right there with her.  Remembers EVERY kid's name, and everything about them, and she's sooo patient and happy and AMAZING.  ugh!
Kamryn, Kam is LOVING to cook.  She just spent a whole hour making a fruit salad for everyone today.  Sadly all we had was bananas and apples and yogurt, but she made enough to feed all of us...twice.  She LOVES coloring, drawing and writing in cursive.  And she just started achievement days a few weeks ago and she loves that too.
Jaden, Jado is awesome.  He's definitely my mama's boy.  I love our relationship.  He's a stud.  He's struggling in school right now, but I think that's due to the craziness in our life right now, the neglect he's gotten because of that, and the fact that we had no idea he wasn't turning in his papers until he had straight F's.  Yup.  But he's working over triple time this week and turning in 5-7 extra  home works a day to get all of those up to at least C's before we move. I know he'll do it.  He's a determined guy.  He has been THE STAR in soccer this year.  His team made it to the championship...which is this weekend.  He's decided he wants to play soccer every year from now on.  He's awesome.
Me, I'm pregnant.  Sometimes I get up to work out, clean, cook or change poop, and sometimes, I don't.   I've never been this depressed or fatigued during a pregnancy.  Can't wait til march!
Foxxie.  Foxxie is awesome.  She's the best dog in tihe world.  I hope she never ever dies.  She is however, the reason that we've had a hard time finding a place to rent.  Most places allow pets, but the very first one I wanted, and still dream about, wouldn't let us apply because of her.  ugh!

Chickens....gone :(

awesomeness...

This are SO chaotic around here....it's hard for me to have a schedule, a routine, the whole system with the family whilst we are in limbo, but I have to say, half of my day is these two, and it's cake.  They love each other so much.   They do EVERYTHING together.  They played out back with grandma's plants, then hid behind the bushes, rode bikes, got in the bath, watched Blue's Clues, had a snack, jumping contest, and here they are counting Boss's money (which happens a couple times a day everyday...he finds new pennies...grandpa's house is a gold mine!).  And any goofy sound boston makes, pearcen makes then laughs...all day long!!!! I love these guys!

How I roll

Since moving back into my parents house (not WITH my parents, clarification there), I mostly watch TV.  I haven't had TV in a year and  I LOVE the FOOD network!  For the first 2 weeks, I'll admit, I was addicted to the Kardashians..done wtih that.  But now i watch...and record most Food network shows, and then at the end of the week decide which meal was the most amazing, and watch it be made a few times,a nd this last week, i made it...don't be grossed out, but it was meatloaf. I've probably only had meatloaf twice in my life, but this was awesome!  Nicely played Ina!
So far this week, it's Rachel Ray's fajitas.  I think well go for it tonight.

My tasteless show of choice right now....America's next top model. I watch all those poor skinny girls, who, in MY opinion, are usually not attractive AT ALL, they just have the tall overly skinny bodies, and I eat my string cheese, or peaches and cream or grapenuts with honey, or whatever awesome food I can find. I feel bad for them, like I should send them a care package of food.  But I  don't. Now onto why this show is wrong..dont 'knwo if anyone else in the world watches it, but on one of the episodes last week, the ONLY pretty girl in the whole competition refused to be shot in underwear or bra....but she would do bikini bottoms with a full top.  They all gave her SOO much crap about it, about how the bikini bottom was smaller than the underwear they awnted her to wear, and she kept trying to tell them that it's the idea of everyone seeing her in her underwear, which I totally agree with!!! But they made her cry.....so I think I'm done with that show..any suggestions as to what should be next?

This is Shannon Stewart...the no  underwear girl.

People I owe big time...

Katherine Alexander for taking my kids all the time...especially Boss
Amy for helping out with Kam
Danica for finding me a house
Julie Cochran for bringing me awesome food from her awesome garden
Boston for making me happy everyday
Lu for getting pregnant so I wouldn't be alone in my misery
Mel for keepign up on our Scrabble games that help me avoid my life.
Vicki Palmer for making my house smell like fall
Sisters for taking my kid this last week so he could get his freaky teeth fixed (thanks Uncle sam!!!!)
Tums makers...for the obvious
Dr. Miller for taking those stupid bumps off my head
Dad for keeping cable for me
My bed

Gotta get get...

I don't know if it's the fact that we went down and actually looked at houses, or the fact that I get EXTREME frustration EVERYDAY about something that is packed that I need desperately...i.e., a can opener....the attachments to my hand mixer.....popcorn....maternity clothes....salt....cinnamon...etc...  but I'm excited to move.  Sad that it's to heat since the weather here is AMAZING, and heat depresses me more than anything in life...well, it's up there with fat.   We've narrowed it down to 2 houses, one smaller one in power ranch, and a big awesome one that's NOT in power ranch....we want power ranch.  It's just a year, I think we can handle smaller.  And it's not SMALLER..it's only a few sq ft smaller than the house we've been in for the last 2 years.
but I'm tired.  Still so tired.
today's to do list:

• make invites for next week's jewelry party
• box up mary kay orders and ship
• figure out an awesome dinner for Jase's birthday tonight (his birthday is tomorrow bu the'll be babysitting for my enrichment night.
• vacuum
• find someone to take my younger 2 today
• take jaden to flag with me to get my stitches out
• laundry, laundry laundry
• order 2 pies for J's birthday (it's what he wants...blah)
• don't beat whiney 2 year old
• go talk to school about recent letters saying my kids all get free lunches and breakfasts...WHAT?!  I hope it's true!
• don't fall asleep in the middle of the day.

Wish me luck!

10 years.....

I can't believe it's been 10 years since the Trade Center Attacks. It seems like it was just 2 or 3 years ago.  I remember laying on our couch in our one bedroom apartment in Gilbert, 6 months pregnant with my first wondering what the heck was going on.  I called Jase who was working out with Sam at their house and he came home.  I glued myself to the tv for days...maybe weeks.  Feeling helpless and horrible for the families of those who's lives were taken.  And feeling SO grateful to be safe, and have all of my loved ones accounted for. This day every year makes my stomach tight, and puts me on edge, but this year, being 4 months pregnant with my last, makes me even more emotional, more grateful for my beautiful family, my amazing country and the love we share as a nation.  My friend Pam had this on her blog...I LOVE IT.

I remember 9/11/01
I remember where I was and what I was doing.
I remember what I felt.
I remember how I cried.
I remember how I held my kids tighter.

I remember this...

and all of these...

But, I also remember this...

and a Nation that looked like this...

and the Spirit that made people do this...

and most especially, do this...

I remember...

Things I have to look forward to...

So the last 2 weeks and probably the next 4 weeks suck.  But I have a lot ot look forward to.  When you're at the bottom, it always helps to look up and see what there is.....

Being a 36C again...I'm already up to a 38DD!

A new Mulder!!!!!

Decorating a new house...even though I will never love another house like I did our last, it's always fun to decorate from scratch.

Vacations again!  Our vacations this year have all been pretty local, and all places we've been to, which we swore we wouldn't do, but we could only afford Utah, Cali, and of coarse a trip with the fam that we didn't have to pay a dime. But ic an't wait to explore new places again.  And hopefully go see the Jones family in Va this fall with our free airline ticket!

Being by my sisters and nieces! I'm ALWAYS jealous of all my friends up here that have family to hang out with all the time...and even though my sisters are much much busier, it'll be nice just to live closer and get to go to their kid's stuff and girl's nights.

My mary Kay order coming in.  I know, that's how pathetic I am right now.  But I take 20% off for anyone that orders, and that means it covers their part, plus puts about an extra 5%, and that 5% usually covers my order, or close to.  I LOVe getting new make up!  Even though I hardly ever wear it anymore.

Can't wait to get these stiches out.  That's the closest thing....This Friday! It sucks not being able to brush your hair on the scalp.  I feel gross!  5 more days!

My Ultra sound in October.  Of coarse we want a girl, but either way, I can't wait to find out and start preparing.  A house full of boys and me and my helper/co chef/baker/co mama Kam would be a lot of fun.

NOT being pregnant.  If this list were numbered, this would be #1.  This makes all the crap in my life seem so much worse.  My teeth hurt, my weight is up 20lbs already, I'm tired all day even if I DID sleep well and I smell everything...including whoever is sitting by me in RS or Sunday School....even if they are 2 seats away, if they breath out of their mouth, or even talk, I die!!!!

Moving back to JC.  Testimony meeting was great this week.  One of my favorite friends here bore her testimony about how she used to hate that they moved back to JC, and now she's soo happy whens he comes back to JC from vacations. I feel the same way.  we LOVE to travel, it's what we always save our $$ up for and have always had as a common dream, but when we come back to quiet, dusty ole JC, we know it's home.

Wait wait, there is something before getting the stitches out!  It's peach and pear week...seriously my favorite week of the year.  It tops out the 4th of July and Christmas. I LOVE LOVE LOVE this week and the weeks to follow of canning, baking pear bread, peach cobbler, peaches and cream every morning for breakfast, 5 pears a day for Boston and a freezer of frozen peaches for our smoothes for a couple of months. I LOVE THIS WEEK!!!!!!


See, I'm an optimist!

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A bad day...

I could tell when after spending the last 2 days packing and cleaning for a few hours each day, I got a phone call from my husband whom I hadn't seen in almost 3 days at 6am saying, "I thought you guys packed more than this...can you load up the kids (that are asleep) and bring them up here so we can work on the house?".  Sure, let me get on that...this morning sickness is cake!

Prepping myself all week for my big head surgery today...I tell J, "I'm scared for today"...his reply, "what's today? Oh yea, it'll be fine".  Awesome.  

The surgery...NOT FINE!  I guess I don't take well to anesthesia, and then they had to give me the kind that doesn't help coterize so I bled like a crazy person.  They were even freaking out about it...I had blood dripping down my face and neck.  And every once in a while I felt major pain so they had to shove more shots in up there.  Luckily I had an awesome dermatologist and he did a fantastic job....but my head is still burning like crazy because I never even take tylenol, so my body sucks with pain killers.

To top the day off, I just had to run back up to my house....and I started crying....A LOT....another family's Uhaul was being unloaded into MY HOUSE!

Oh and welcome to maternity jeans...as of today!!!

  Can I just sleep for a few years?!

Here is a picture that makes me happy though....

Kam and her cousin Tess at Colorado after filling the hot tub with soap.