A day in the life of…

I know that most of the things I post on here are just regular days in the life of these guys….but for a couple of days I decided to just follow them arround and take shots of the everyday thigns they do…enjoy.

Of course, everyday starts with a spinach shake….sometimes it takes an hour, sometimes it takes 5 minutes…usually depending on how many grapes and bananas we have on hand. 

 Then they play with whatever they feel like for a while…usually, cars, bubbles, fake food, or puzzles.

 Then they start to go crazy….so I pop on some Nick Jr.

 Then I feel guilt after a show or two and have them play in the toy room….this day they chose books and trains.

 Somedays…MOST days they keep breakfast on their faces til lunch and their bedhead is the fashion of the day.  Clothes…always optional with the Mulders.

 This day we got to go swimming with our buddy Stratton.  Always makes for a good time.

Vivian got worn out very quickly…and just laid across my legs for the last half hour of swim time.

 Lucky me…she's a lovely sleeper and transports from legs, to car to bed nicely.

And the ride home from the pool was enough to put this guy out.  We've been bless with AMAZING sleepers and AMAZING eaters. Two things I'm always so grateful for.

 This is the next day's naps. I'm a sleep stalker.  At least once a week I take pictures of one or more of my kids sleeping.  I love how adorable they are when they're asleep! I want to slurp their cheeks offf!!!

 This guys STILL, at almost 5 years old, gets excited for quiet time….goes right in and picks out a few books, "reads" until he falls asleep..and will sleep up to 4 hours if I let him….of course, he'll be my night owl that night if I let him go past 2 hours.  Gotta choose.

 This was in June….I'd like to do another one for fall since they already do different things each day…I love it…and I'm going to desperately miss these littles!!!!

4th at Grandma and Grandpa's

Every year for the 4th we head up north.   The 4th of July IS a small town holiday (I think they all are).  WE always go to heber to the fireworks, and then we do a few of the local things in Taylor, but mostly we just hang out in the cooler wheather at Grandma's house!

 Just a nice shot of our oldest member of our family…Foxxie turned 13 this summer.

 Our usual picture by the rock at the Heber Fireworks. 

Today i watched this video and I cried the entire way through.  not like weep weep….like wiping tears every couple of seconds and runny nose.  I want my girls to feel good about themselves because they ARE so beautiful and amazing.   But I have NEVER felt uglier in my life than I do this year.  I've let it become so consuming that I can hardly enjoy my life. I am constantly thinking, "I'm so fat, nothing fits me anymore", "This hair cut looks like a mix between Dora and an Ooompa Loompa".   "I'm getting so old and out of shape", "My lips are getting smaller, nose bigger and eyes wrinklier".   I do believe I have a messed up sense of self  perseption, but I don't know how to change it.  When others give me compliments, I hate it. I feel uncomforatble and I feel like they are ALWAYS lies…no matter who says them. It consumes my thoughts so much that it wears me out and makes it hard to do my hair or make up or get dressed each day.  I DO NOT want my girls to feel this way about themselves.
   Just figured I'd post a real mom moment on here.  90% of my life is cuddles, books, cooking, cleaning and playing cars or fake food….all of the things I love.  But I figured I should also put the way I feel at this time in my life.  Hopefully this short time in my life.  Hopefully with help from my Heavenly Father, and maybe some counceling, I can feel great about myself again.  There are a lot of factors I've tried to blame it on…..Lack of sleep….small husband….LOTS of women with amazing bods (whether they got some surgical help or not) with kids around me out here…A closet full of clothes that are 1-2 sizes to small, thinking a year ago that I'd for sure fit into them by now….photoshopped girls in my magazines….etc….but no matter what< i'm in charge of feeling how I feel about myself…those things should have the control to make me feel like crap about the way I look…but right now…they all do.

Bzzin

As a bzzagent I was just given the chance to try out this new hair dye.  I've been using all natural hair dyes for about a year now, but I figured if it's free, I'll give it a try…it's coming right to my mailbox, customized for my hair and it's FREE (as a bzzagent).  Can't wait!